rum &coke rules/red infinity

idk at exactly which point i am triggered, but i block it faster than it hits me &i'm back onto a natural curve. only i'm not going straight anymore. this continues. i've fallen in love over &over again, only to realize it was all a hoax. my heart was ripped out from underneath me; crushed like the last piñata of the party. only this is not a party anymore. happiness is not a choice. they lie. a good lie, nonetheless. there's nothing wrong with wanting to look attractive to someone else, it makes it better. but don't lie. i don't want to know the point of the trigger. i don't need to know. what we don't know won't kill us. hopefully.
ps. fuck you
yeah, you