growing painz

heartbeatz papercutz koo klutz cigarette buttz
20 seconds 2 venus
who's coming with me?
nobody answered at 911
whoa
letz go

green is not your enemy
any
more
trees 4 free

firecrackerz
on a
cross

good, Lord (tell me when it's over)

mmmm

vodka &spaghetti.

Forlorn

rewriting reworking overdoing overtime of myself in a different mind. inner peace is more than a myth more than all the different words for one meaning. true leader of the outskirts of Arizona. Corona just passing thru out the course of one plus equals a sum of two. everytime i see two-fourteen i fucking think of you. one word: two. hearing what i see. talking in circles frozen foods are good accept as is tears of unrequited joy bell boy bus boy busy as a dead bee. windowsill it's stuck still buzzing on what could've been. it might still be, but that road is on the down low. i've done enough damage for one the one and only meaning for the word, me. words are only words, that's it. that's that. that's the thing you asked me to do that i forgot. i'm forgetting that i'm probably forgotten by you. you pronounced my name wrong and got pulled over in the morning. i cursed you in my bath. i fed myself another line of white lies. you saw my cries, your broken ears exercised remaining plan b to z. the distance.
kills.
speed is slow in relation to time zones.
my phone is disconnected
to you.
i'm disconnected
communication
is the key
to the balance
delicacy is my fucked up existence
from the loss of you.

those tears fall from a deeper woman now.,
a deeper point of view.
i see that i want to see the truth.

o how i love

sleeping pills, magic thrills, gritty bipolar clam chowder and tea. b &w obsolete sheets, dirty socks and missing chromosome pleats. don't dream of flowers in bloom can't find 'em, doing what i can't ALAS i am beaming overcoming the threatening disease.
end of the beginning
life begins
dreams aren't as they seem,
apparently. obviously so.
how i got here idk. everything is just as it should be, accordian to me. scattered numbers, forgotten faces, pumpkins, popcorn, the Cranberries~his darkest secret was given to me. avenging my will, revenge on the death of my unnecessary success. obsessed with a clock that refuses to hold my so/m>ber hand. pale september. i remember a broken spirit renewed. rewind bittersweet neverending dreams with no meaning if i choose to accept refuse confusedin its entirety. footnote header backwards
up
down it's up to me
losing living the life of restless peace. wandering releasing forever piecing eternally missing piece by pieces i never needed anyway. i never needed it. i never never never ne
vertically waiting
shrinking
what seems to be is
only a dream.
sigh*

it's all a blur when you forget to breathe.

nondoing

"The more people do, the more society develops, the more problems arise. The increasing desolation of the nature, the exhaustion of resources, the uneasiness and disintegration of the human spirit, all have been brought about by humanity's trying to accomplish something. Originally there was no reason to progress, and nothing that had to be done. We have come to the point at which there is no other way than to bring about a "movement" not to bring anything about."

"Why do you have to develop? If economic growth rises from 5% to 10%, is happiness going to double? What's wrong with a growth rate of 0%? Isn't this a rather stable kind of economics? Could there be anything better than living simply and taking it easy?" -Masanobu Fukuoka