o how i love

sleeping pills, magic thrills, gritty bipolar clam chowder and tea. b &w obsolete sheets, dirty socks and missing chromosome pleats. don't dream of flowers in bloom can't find 'em, doing what i can't ALAS i am beaming overcoming the threatening disease.
end of the beginning
life begins
dreams aren't as they seem,
apparently. obviously so.
how i got here idk. everything is just as it should be, accordian to me. scattered numbers, forgotten faces, pumpkins, popcorn, the Cranberries~his darkest secret was given to me. avenging my will, revenge on the death of my unnecessary success. obsessed with a clock that refuses to hold my so/m>ber hand. pale september. i remember a broken spirit renewed. rewind bittersweet neverending dreams with no meaning if i choose to accept refuse confusedin its entirety. footnote header backwards
up
down it's up to me
losing living the life of restless peace. wandering releasing forever piecing eternally missing piece by pieces i never needed anyway. i never needed it. i never never never ne
vertically waiting
shrinking
what seems to be is
only a dream.
sigh*

it's all a blur when you forget to breathe.