knockout

ideas about love, royal blue, quiet intercourse two happy days together, simultaneously spun. millions of colors, poems about his face. laced with disappointment. we went to the park. i waited while he went to the porter potty. his mouth dissolved my daydreams. bath cube, i can't remember his hands. i think. never in mine in my memory bank. my goldfish died, but i forgive him. we stood by the ocean that night, i was too tired to kiss him. i broke his heart. selfish somber, so sullen. i was just a girl. he broke me, half &half. peculiar pet names, baby talk. petrified pacifier, she introduced me. my stomach turned with excitement, ecstasy sent me through God. i love misery. misery loves me. cloudy curiosity nine means the end.